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"the importance of imagining an alternative to the current order is not to lay down a precise programme for the future, but rather to provide a point of alterity or exteriority as a way of interrogating the limits of this order. Moreover, we should think of utopia in terms of action in the immediate sense, of creating alternatives within the present, at localised points…. Utopia is something that emerges in political struggles themselves." -Saul Newman
stop tryna guess what I am
stop tryna tell me who I’m not.
I was born in the Philippines
so it makes me Filipino.
and these slightly slanted eyes ain’t just for seein,
bitch, i see right through you.
you expert on me,
with your, fake asian tattoos?
you expert on me,
with your, tae bo and kung fu?
so what you try dim sum on the menu?
so what you a fan of lucy liu?
so that makes you an expert on how i should look?
what the fuck do you know about being Asian?!
I’m about to put you in your place son
what do you know about Hiroshima and Nagasaki?
what do you know about demilitarized zones and no gunnery?
about li lai and the military?
what do you know about the killing fields and the signs that wield
"no Chinese or dogs allowed"
what do you know about comfort women and geisha girls?
about colonization all over the asian world?
what do you know about the great wall?
i could school you on each and all
motherfucker i’m about to get raw!
you picked the wrong asian girl to mess with.
cuz my tongue is split.
it’s forked and steel tipped
and it will puncture and bleed you
and if you don’t know,
now you know,
don’t ask me what i’m sayin in my native tongue,
you wanna know so badly go learn it yourself.
20 years it took me to perfect a language my mothers and her mothers spoke,
20 seconds it took you to ask me what my sisters and i spoke about?
if i said i wasn’t talkin to you,
why don’t you stop botherin me all up in my business?
how dare you step to me invade my privacy,
waste my time ask me if i’m able to relay you the contents in my conversation?
what nonsense is this?
do i look like your private translator?
nosey motherfucker you prolly thought dialogue centered around you
and you just wanted to make sure.
is it because you’re paranoid and insecure?
or just jealous cause my tongue’s got more skills than yours?
so you wanna learn ”i love you” and "hello",
why you need to know?
you think of me as some Asian hoe
ready to turn around just because you said
”hey baby, anyong hasaeyo, anyong hasaeyo?”
or ”ni hao ma, i love you china doll”.
please, your shit don’t impress at all,
my words were meant to be mentioned in meticulous manner
yet your mispronouncing man-handling mouth
fucks it all up!
my meanings misused for miscommunication misinterpretations mispoken mistake
motherfucker it makes me mad
so you better have listened, asshole, and listen well
don’t talk to me anymore, don’t fuck with me anymore,
because i am done talking to you.
relevant to the katy perry bullshit.
someone asked me, not too long ago why/wherefore trans* is transmisogynist… i didn’t have a ready answer since this is a critique i’ve skimmed over and not thought to much about. but. i have been thinking about it and it really is. refer to this image:
I’ve said elsewhere that there is not trans community. and that the notion of a trans community is actually and directly harmful to trans women. and it is.
And yeah, i look at this poster and i see all the things i hate about it and the trans* umbrella politics.
I mean. Why are “third gender” and “Two Spirit” on this list?
are they really trans(asterisk) identities??? (hint: this third gender girl say ‘no’ about that at least)
more to the point
the notion that the ‘trans community’ needs to be more inclusive strikes me as suspect when , at best, there has been over-representation by middle class+ binary white trans people. especially since i often hear arguments in favour of this umbrella
is really about non-binary inclusion
except… from my experience with the trans(asterisk) community binary trans women of colour definitely aren’t, um, ‘included’ in any meaningful way
ultimately i find calls for inclusion suspicious when certain people are assumed to be included, but arent really. it has the net effect of saying that the non-space binary twoc are occupying is too much. that more room should be made for all these other identities. without really considering how the current trans ‘community’ is structured by the exclusion and exploitation of twoc.
Found from various places online:
Sister Outsider: Essays and Speeches by Audre Lorde
Critical Race Theory: An Introduction by Richard Delgado and Jean Stefancic
The Black Image in the White Mind: Media and Race in America- Robert M. Entman and Andrew Rojecki
Ain’t I a Woman: Black Women and Feminism - bell hooks
Feminism is for Everybody - bell hooks
outlaw culture - bell hooks
Faces at the Bottom of the Well - Derrick Bell
Sex, Power, and Consent - Anastasia Powell
I am Your Sister - Audre Lorde
Patricia Hill Collins - Black Feminist Thought
Gender Trouble - Judith Butler
Their Eyes Were Watching God - Zora Neale Hurston
Medical Apartheid - Harriet Washington
Fear of a Queer Planet: Queer Politics and Social Theory - edited by Michael Warner
Colonialism/Postcolonialism - Ania Loomba
Discipline and Punish - Michel Foucault
Capitalist Realism: Is There No Alternative? by Mark Fisher
Cultural Theory and Popular Culture - John Storey
Michel Foucault - The Archeology of Knowledge
(Sorry they aren’t organized very well.)
[ Reaching deep into the archives this morning, following up on two widely read posts on Chinese food and the racist myth of MSG, here’s a post originally published on my old blog on July 18, 2007, prompted by a wave of mainstream media orientalist fearmongering concerning the USFDA’s ban on catfish imported from China. ]
Fear and fetishization of freaky food is among the most common expressions in the USA of anti-Asian racism. Schoolyard taunts about eating dogs, cats, and rats are as familiar to Asian American ears as “ching chong”, “flied lice”, and high-pitched kung-fu-movie noises (usually inexplicably accompanied by stiff flat hands which appear terribly ill-prepared for action). What I find rather amazing is that so many non-Asians continue to find these moronic clichés funny and/or fascinating, to the point that lurid stories about tainted Chinese food have been at or near the top of corporate fake-news for weeks.
I suppose part of it is that eating is among our most primeval physical activities, along with having sex; so it’s easy for lizard-brained racists to focus their disgust and derision on those two basic areas: both emasculating and hypersexualizing our bodies, both grossed out and intrigued by our food, repulsed yet attracted by our exoticized ways. I think Tony Bourdain was on the money when he connected fear of dirty food with fear of dirty people. In the same way that some white folks at cash registers recoil slightly from a person of color’s hand when passing change, some apparently feel that melanin sheds from our skin as we cook and infects the food we prepare with cooties of color, especially given our unhygienic habits.
This is especially ironic considering that people of color have been cooking and cleaning for white folks for centuries. Many whites have developed a clever way to deal with this: they simply don’t think about it. In the old South, food was usually passed from the kitchen prep area to the dining room through either a small counter-top revolving wooden door or a dumb waiter, so that white diners would not be forced to see black skin, which they would find distasteful. These days, people of color still do the majority of cooking and cleaning for white America in restaurants and hotels and office buildings; but for the most part they are kept shuffling quietly in the background while white celebrity chefs are fêted on TV.
Eduardo Hughes Galeano (via musingsofadrapetomaniac)
when white people on tumblr deny white privilege by explaining that something bad has happened to them “but i guess it doesn’t matter because i’m white, you racist PoC!" i just kind of want to shake them by the shoulders and scream in their face.
white privilege does not mean that white people cannot have problems, and nobody ever said otherwise. white people can still:
- be abused
- be sexually assaulted/raped
- have mental illnesses
- experience tragedies such as death in the family
- be bullied
- be homeless
- have monetary issues
- be oppressed by means of being LGBT*QIA
- have disabilities
- have valid problems and be entitled to their feelings
and that doesn’t mean that any of those things “don’t matter” because you’re white.
however, that’s not the issue at hand when white privilege is brought up. white privilege means that you do not have to experience systematic oppression against you simply for your race. you receive benefits just for being white, and you yourself may not be racist, but you still get all the perks from it.
white people have most of the power. white people are represented. white people have a voice. when white children go missing people actually look for them. when white people are killed people are up in arms about justice. white people are not murdered just for being white. white people are not beaten by police just for being white. white people are not profiled, seen as dangerous, feared, seen as repulsive, seen as second-class citizens just because they are white.
and think about it: PoC tend to experience much more of the issues in the list above than white people. and on top of that, they have to deal with racism as well.
so when you take a topic so vast such as white privilege and you try to invalidate it because “i experienced this bad thing”, you’re making it
and that’s really, really fucked up. because your issues do not matter more than the issues of all PoC.
Here is what i wrote in this ask:
I’m not surprised that the only link you can find is me talking about it since I think i’m the only person to make an issue about the racialized component of ladyboy.
First. If you google ‘ladyboy’ ([tw: for fetishizing]) pretty much all the results are trans feminine Asians. It is a slur and term that is quite often used to describe Southeast Asian #girlslikeus.
It is, indeed, both a racist and a transmisogynist slur.
Transmisogynist for obvious reasons. And racist because of the ways that it is primarily used against SE Asian trans feminine ppl and is a result of colonisation.
The prevalance of the word in SE Asia is also why, as far as i’m concerned, why only Asian #girlslikeus could or should reclaim it, despite the fact that it may be used against non-Asians.
I mean. I joined a site (out of morbid curiousity) called myladyboydate. Started by a gross white man in the Philippines and all about hooking men up with ladyboys in the Philippines or other SE Asian places. In the community there, too, it is common way for some #girlslikeus to identify themselves.
otherwise… the word has a complicated history with trans feminine ppl in SE Asia. and for white ppl to reclaim it without having to deal with the racialized transmisogyny that goes along with it? no.